Star Crossed Lover

[builtgodnowwhat]

 You're a relapse I didn't know would happen. Seeing you again after a while is like smoking for the 1st time after a while. Cloud nine is what people usually call it. You're close yet so far, do you understand me? You're a jewel I cannot have, poetry that a poet already claimed as theirs. It's hard to look at you, because I'm afraid if I do, I'll never look away. Yearning for you is all I ever do, and it's all I've been doing since the moment I met you. The yearning is violent- and I continue to wait for something that might never happen. And the worst part is, my bones are slowly breaking with the amount of desire I have to have you in my arms, even if it's just for a moment of time. 

It's a motion sickness of love, a roller coaster of desire. A curse that'll never be broken, because no matter how hard you want to break it, you can't. I can't help but envy the poet who has the best poetry. Does he know how lucky he is? Does he know how much I desire to be in his place, even if it was for a day? To love the name I yearn to speak, to admire the adorn eyes of the girl I wanted for so long. It's beautifully sickening how I feel, and how I love.