Never Wanted

Your hugs were like barb wires,
cutting deep into my skin.
Your love like a knife.
Instead of giving birth to your child,
you gave birth to your biggest pain.
Your biggest embarrassment.
Like a mother spider eating her spiderling.
I had my biggest dreams with you,
but they were your biggest nightmares.
You left your rotten modulation
in my ears.
You left abandonment in my heart.
You gave birth to apart of yourself
that you hated with passion.
I was a broken rhythm
you didn't want to hear.
Did my blood shed prove my humanity?
Did my whine for mortality ruin you,
in the same way you ruin me?
Was I finally a jewel in your eyes?
You made life hell,
and I hope you resting in your
personal hell.