Foilsick

[builtgodnowwhat]

Only I can break my own promises.
Every day is a relapse, and each day I need a stronger dose.
My wet eyes and broken dreams are the only thing saving me
yet killing me.
I'm alive and I'm dead.
For all I am, I am a dead man walking.
I am a whirlwind to my own world.
I destroy myself when I don't feel whole,
because it's what I was taught.
My heart is the home for the broken and the hopeless.
As my body is food for the maggots.
My never ending dance with death brings me comfort.
We dance to the sound of the gun barrel,
playing Roullet with each other.
The reaper has learned to love me,
for everyone tried to love me.
I'm impossible, a jigsaw puzzle waiting for the solution.
I'm still lost in this jungle of madness.